Lately, I find I am very afraid. Now, more than ever, the world seems like a scary place, and I feel too frightened for creativity, for adventures, or for dreams.
When you’re ready for the next big thing, your unconscious can bring it to your attention in some scary ways. Anger, jealousy, desire, crazy energetic bursts: they’re all here. And the question that we always ask ourselves, is how to move from the uncomfortable FEELING to the satisfied DOING?
Maybe that’s the wrong question.
A few days ago, I was flipping through the channels and stumbled on a reality show called “Fat Guys in the Woods.” I expected it to be ridiculous. I expected it to be filled with bleeped dialogue of lazy men bickering with each other while the overblown guide yelled at them like a bearded Jillian Michaels. But I was wrong.
This is going to be one of those times when I write a bunch of stuff that maybe I shouldn’t. And I wouldn’t, except I think maybe it’s important for you to hear. So here goes.
It’s Monday morning, and most of us probably wish we were somewhere else. Continue reading “Imaginary Lives”
The past few years have been a tumultuous time for me. I would hesitate to call it a “rough patch” or a “dark period,” though truthfully it has been those things at times. I’ve been diving deep into the shadows of myself, wrestling with them, accepting them, slowly but surely giving the world a glimpse of the things I’ve kept hidden for so long, for fear I would be judged unworthy. And in the light of day and within the warm space that opens from completely emptying one’s self, I’ve come out the other side, broken and reassembled, cleansed and infinitely freer. Continue reading “Getting Messy”